Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Emoting

It has been a tough few days for me.  I don't know why, but I haven't felt like myself.  Along with the "funk", I've neglected reading blogs, and obviously posting in my own.  I've got so many thoughts swimming around in my head, but I just can't seem to make them coherent enough to put into words.  So, I'm just going to write.  I'm sure this is choppy (I may not even proof read it).  It probably won't make sense to anyone but me.  But I just want to "talk" about the random thoughts in my head.
 
Random thought #1:  Brynlee. 
 
Poor Bryn.  In the past 2 weeks, she's split her lip open, smashed her finger (I still think she may lose the nail), dislocated her elbow, and gotten a concussion.  How much more can one girl take?  She also ran away from me in church on Sunday, just as the meeting was getting out.  The halls were crowded - too crowded for me to move quickly, but she was small enough to fit through legs and make it to the parking lot, which is where I finally caught up with her.  She's a tornado.
 
She is however getting better at the potty, slowly.  She's been in panties for 2 weeks now, and while she has at least one accident per day they do seem to be getting less frequent.  She has been waking up dry so I know she can do it - she's just too freakin' stubborn.
 
Random thought #2:  Freakin'
 
I've got to stop saying this word so freakin' much.  When Bryn used it yesterday, I realized that it didn't sound great coming from the mouth of a 2 year old.
 
Random thought #3:  Prioritization
 
I need to find a way to prioritize my housework.  I hate housework, but I love a clean house.  But since I hate housework, I save it until the very last of all my other things I have to do (working 1.5 jobs, exercising, spending time with my family) that it doesn't get done very often.  In fact, I'd be embarrassed if anyone came to my house.  Its a freakin' mess. . . er, a total mess.
 
Random thought #4:  Corn
 
I haven't blogged about this, because who really wants to read boring health stuff, but I have recently been diagnosed with an allergy to corn.  It may not seem like such a big deal until you realize all the things that have corn derivatives:  corn syrup, corn oil, corn starch, corn flour, etc.  I'd venture to say that 90% of all processed food items have corn in them - including diet coke (caramel color is made from a corn derivative).  This past week has been my first full week totally 100% corn free.  Its taken me about a month to totally eliminate it.  In fact, I haven't even needed the steroids that I typically take twice daily.  I've lost 6 pounds.  Yay me!
 
But I am really missing my diet coke.
 
Random thought #5:  Exercise
 
I've been really energized about exercising lately.  I signed up for a team relay race in June, and I'm totally pumped to get back into good running shape.  I've been ruining inclines on the dreadmill, swimming and riding the bike.  I've even added a bit of resistance training (which is something that I freakin'. . er, totally hate). 
 
Random thought #6:  Gracelin
 
Gracelin broke the couch at the daycare lady's last week.  It was a nice leather couch, and I know Miss O cannot afford to replace it.  I feel somewhat obligated to replace it, or at least pay to fix it, but we don't really have the money since we're saving for Disneyworld next month.  So, I'm trying to convince myself that it is just her liability for having a daycare.  So, I'm torn.
 
Random thought #7:  Disneyworld
 
I really don't want to go to Disneyworld next month.  I know my husband and kids are excited, but that is one of the last places I'd choose to go.  I've been married for 7 years, and this will be our 5th trip to a Disney destination.  I freakin'. . er, really hate Disney.  Its too crowded and expensive.  I'd much rather take a vacation to Alaska or Hawaii, or some other place mountainy/beachy where I can relax.  Not spend $60 per person per day to be "entertained".  I'm a Disney scrooge.  I think I need to put my foot down next year so that I can take a vacation that I enjoy.
 
Random thought #8:  Freak
 
**I will return to my normal blogging habits shortly.
 
 

13 comments:

Bonnie said...

Wow - that's a lot of randomness.

I agree with you about the sofa being your daycare provider's liability. But maybe I am too harsh? I can see why you feel responsibility, however if it happened at my daughter's preschool I'd kind of caulk it up to the 20 other little kids playing there daily for the last gazillion years...

Wow - corn in diet coke? I would never have guessed. I'm starting a no wheat diet on Saturday to see if I have wheat allergies so I'm sure there will be some surprises for me too.

Glad you're back! :-)

Bonnie said...

OK - my typing is way off - responsible and chalk... hope you can translate!

Suzie said...

I really think that your DC provider should replace her own couch, she was in charge of your daughter and is supposed to be watching her, so imho it is her fault that she let her play on the couch and break it. One of the risks you take as an in home provider is that your house is going to take a beating.

Kim said...

Having had a daycare in my home, I would just write it off and buy another one when I could afford it. I wouldn't expect a child's family to pay for it. Besides, I find it hard to believe that a 4 (?) yr old broke it all on her own. Either it was broke before or she had some help.

I don't like Disney either.

I had to be on a low iodine (no salt) diet last summer when I was being treated for cancer - it sucked. I lost 22 lbs but it wasn't worth it! It was worse than the radiation treatment! Keep up the good work!

I have a tornado too - He is Kyle and probably our last for that reason...

Have a great day tomorrow! Kim

Ruhiyyih Rose said...

I love random posts! It sounds like you have a lot on your mind and a lot going on in your life right now. I hope you can get some feedback here that helps you sort out all that stuff. I don't have any kids so...some stuff I don't really comment about. But, I will say that the corn thing must really SUCK and I am sorry. I hope you can find diet coke alternative that fits...

Disney...yeah...that is a tough one. With the economy so beaten up right now there are much smaller crowds. That could be a good thing :)

Julia said...

This might be long and I should have just emailed you...but man we need our girl's night with Adrian.

Reading your post was like kind of what I was thinking about this morning. Telling Jeff that I was just going to go to Mesquite for the weekend. I need some time to detox.

I think you are lucky that "freakin'" is the only thing your kids know. I say so much worse and WAY too often. I know because I've heard it right back at me.

Yay on the 6 lbs but Boo to the no corn. Man, how are you going to eat out if you have to worry about that. Actually there are days I wish I was allergic to anything. Take today, I'm eating pot roast at 10:31.....yuck.

Housework. My counselor told me to hire a housekeeper. I told her I couldn't afford it. She told me my health couldn't afford it. She is right. Haven't done it yet. I kind of like cleaning, but I think in a bad OCD way.

Love DisneyLand (pretty much the same as DW). Kids are happy, husband is happy, churros everwhere...plus at least there are the big turkey legs in DW. They still don't have those in DL. I'm okay with it even though I HATE crowds. Tom Sawyer Island (think it is Pirate Island now) is the way to go. Kids are exhausted after that. Or make them paddle on the canoe trip (can't think of the actual name). That will teach them.

last thought....can you enjoy vacations with kids and husband? I always worry about them. Are THEY happy? Who needs a diaper change? Who is starving to death? Who NEEDS something?

Jeff is always angry at me on vacation because I'm the one that thinks of this stuff. I guess they have all survived without me, but at the same time, if I don't think of it, no one will.

Julia said...

PS. I wish you would move to my neighborhood. I want to move, but no way Jeff will....so you have to. :)

carrie said...

First of all...6 pounds is great! But I agree w/Julia...the corn part sucks! I had NO idea about it being in Diet Coke and stuff. I'm serious that once I cut that stuff out of my diet, I started losing weight right away. Once I got over the initial withdrawls (ha ha....but so true!!) it made me feel lots better, too. As for the daycare thing....I agree that it's a risk the daycare provider has to deal with. It's not like your daughter broke it on purpose...and it's hard for me to believe she would be able to break it herself anyway. I so agree w/you on the cleaning thing. As soon as I clean something...one of my crazy little ones messes it right back up again. Maybe that's why I procrastinate so much.... ha ha I love to read what you write. I read this last night, really late, and I wanted to comment then....and one of my kids woke up. I just relate to what you write...so THANK YOU for making me feel kinda normal w/the things I feel, think, and do. I think you're great.

Lindsay said...

I too, need to eliminate the freak word....big time!

Congrats on the 6lbs, that's awesome.

I don't get the Disneyland draw either, and luckily neither does my husband - we've never taken our kids and they've never asked.

devri said...

i loved this post from you, keep radomizing. let it all out.. sorry about your alergy, if it makes you feel any better, i am allrgic to sea food and fish. noy good to be married to an island man lol

Lynita said...

Wow, to be allergic to corn, I think I would loose some serious weight, I mean tortilla chips and corn syrup alone! It sounds like Bryn is giving you a run for your money, I hope that she stays out of harms way a little more. By the way, Disneyworld would be a great vacation if you had someone to watch the kids for you at night so you could play, but other than that I agree with you Hawaii or Alaska any day!

tiburon said...

I am sorry you are struggling. I totally agree with you on the freaking thing - my kids are getting some bad habits from their mom!

We need to get together :)

Omgirl said...

I can't believe you have a corn allergy! How was it expressing itself, if you dont' mind my asking? And do you now see any other improvements in your health, other than the weight loss?