I've got to come clean: it has been over 3 weeks since I've gone for a run. I've wanted too, and I've thought about it often, but it just hasn't happened. Between having pneumonia and the mother-of-all-sinus infections (that made pneumonia feel like nothing) and then being on vacation, it just hasn't happened. I tried to run Monday, but I just wasn't feeling it - so I setteled for 2 hours of walking on the dreadmill at an incline of 3.5. I don't know what is wrong, but I'm just not "feelin' it". My motivation is gone, and its starting to scare me. I'm committed to a team relay in June, and I don't want to look like a fool. I want to race.
I've been really struggling with my diet too. Being on vacation was difficult, and I obviously cheated quite a bit, but now that I'm home, I still cannot find the will power to eat well. I actually did fairly well yesterday until I got home. I was starving, and as I was fixing dinner, I started snacking on some left over chocolates the girls had. Before I knew it, the kids' candy was gone, and I'd moved on to left over Halloween candy. It was stale and disgusting, but I ate 3 or 4 pieces before I stopped myself. I've been afraid to even step on the scale - I'm sure I've gained, but I don't want to know.
Someone help me please! How do I get my motivation back?